getting a little burned out

this is not gonna be a happy-go-lucky post.
i am getting a little burned out.
on these things:

clingy boys
boys who are jackasses
ok boys in general
getting blamed for things that aren't my fault
dealing with blame and shame and consequences of decisions i made years ago.
COLLEGE. nuff said.
not drinking pop anymore. i miss it.
lack of money.
lack of gas. due to lack of money.
incredibly high credit card bill. (at least i don't have loans.)
my tiny apt.
STILLWATER. nuff said.
driving back and forth to tulsa.
feeling like i can't really depend on anyone at this point.
fighting with my mother.
having maybe 3 hours of free time a day and that's pushing it.
my job.
crappy cell phone chargers.
incredibly high electric bills.
not having anyone to go to church with me. i prefer not to go alone.
headaches.
bugs.
this heat/humidity.
house shopping.
ASSHOLES.

wait i think i said that one twice.

ok i know i'm being whiney/childish/bitchy.
but i'm seriously at my freakin wits end.
i'm not sure how much more i can take!
i'm just so sick of people bailing on me.
feeling like i'm not important.

when i make the people closest to me my whole dang world.
why do i feel like they make me the bottom of their to-do-lists?
and someimes...i'm not even on the damn list.

I AM SO READY TO FREAKING GRADUATE AND MOVE AWAY.
far far far freaking away.

i need:
new friends. (except a select few of course. i'll keep them lol)
new town.
new place to live.
new job...with a SALARY. gah.
new weather!
a brand spankin' new life.


ok so to end on a less ridiculous note.
here's some things i'm currently grateful for:

getting closer to my sister. finally.
the hugs my kids at work give me, they're comfort food for my soul i swear.
the fact that i graduate in less than 10 months. i can officially see the light at the end of the tunnel THANK GOD.
well on that note: GOD.
caffeine. (in tea form)
my animals (when they're behaving.)
my dad's financial support with school.
the internet.


bah humbug.