the men i love.

fictional characters &&/or famous men
that i am absolutely in love with.

ready set, drool.

LIFE UPDATE!!! :)

ok friends it's been awhile.
so why don't i update you on my life?
well...
a.)is for ADOREABLE. i live in a ticket booth. yes a ticket booth.
don't worry it's ADOREABLE.i live on the five oaks lodge. back in the fifties it used to be an amusement park. my landlords bought it, turned it into a ranch, and turned all the old amusement park buildings into little loft style houses. i live in the ticket booth. it has windows all the way around the whole building. it's one long room and it's way ADOREABLE. i live on 185 acres. it's bomb.
b.) is for BABIES. i work at a private preschool in the infant room. somedays i get paid to snuggle lil bebes, rock them to sleep, sing lullabys, tickel them, make 'em giggle. those days are amazing. other days i get paid to be puked on, pooped on, peed on, screamed at, scratched, snotted on, etc. all in all though, i love my job with the BABIES.
c.) is for COREY :) i've been dating corey this time around since about the beginning of september. it's been going amazing. he's so sweet, attentive, tells me good morning, tells me goodnight, he makes me laugh, he's easy to talk to, we work out our issues like adults, ahhhhh. i really like him. we're just dating, and i am so incredibly smiley about where we're at.
d.) is for DRAMA! which i am relatively free of, minus the occasional ridiculous drama that i get pulled into from time to time, i don't have any of my own. YAY.
e.) is for...i don't have an e lol.
f.) is for FAMILY. one night a week i watch a movie with my mom and we eat dinner together. ive been talking to anna more often. my dad's in south africa so that sucks.
g.) is for GOD! i've been talking to God a lot more lately. Every now and then i've been reading His word. I need to do so every night.
h.) is for HAPPY. which i am.
i.) is for igloo?? i don't have an i lol.
j.) is for JORDAN! jordan and rachel are getting married! i still can't believe it! i get to be a bridesmaid. yayyy! :)
k.) is for KLOE. i get to take her on kk-rae rae dates now. they are amazing. she's growing up too fast!
l.) is for LOLA who has developed a nasty habbit of jumping down off of my closet onto my pillow in the middle of the night. i nearly wet the bed way too often.
m.) is for MAKEOVER. i need one. any takers?
n.) is for NOVACAIN. i get insurance in 2 weeks! then out come the wisdom teeth!!!!!
o.) is for OKLAHOMA. i'm kidding, i have no o.
p.) is for PUPPY. ross is a mess but at least he's home with me full time again. i love him. i did not love sharing joint custody of him with my mother. gosh i wish i was kidding lol.
q.) come on if i dont have an o of course i dont have aq.
r.) is for READING. i re-read the true blood books, the percy jackson books, the titans of chaos books, the twilight books. i'm out of series. recommend some new books please!!!
s.) is for SLUMP. everything is going well, i'm happy with my life. but i have no major goals that i can really work towards. i of course want a teaching job, but that's a wait and see kind of game. i need to work on my relationship with God, and i want to start horseback riding Sparky more, but i'm graduated. this is my life. it won't drastically change in 4 more years like it has for the past 8. and that's weird. i'm feelin' a little weird.
t.) no t.
u.) no u.
v.) no v.
w.) no w.
x.) yeah right.
z.) zebra?

well friends. i tried to update you. hope you enjoyed it.

for your listening pleasure
here's an old song of mine from decades back.
don't let the sad lyrics fool you. it's an old song and i'm a happy girl.
think of taylor swift or the wreckers. it's country.

"I'm not missing you right now"
the rain keeps falling down
on my tin roof
the weather's doing its best
to match my mood
the rain keeps falling down
and so do my tears
but the tears they fall with no sound
but i'm not missin you right now

i keep thinkin bout
you with her
and how damn happy she is
i wonder if we
finally made this work
if i'd feel like that again

with every breath
with every smile
i hold back the rain for awhile
with every step
with every mile
i regret the years
but i'm not missin you right now

the minutes keep on
creepin by
but the years they flew way too fast
i can't believe
where we are now
but i can't regret our past

when i hear a friend
mention you
or i run into you in this small town
sometimes i light up
like a christmas tree
and i forget who we are now for awhile

with every breath
with every smile
i hold back the rain for awhile
with every step
with every mile
i regret my fears
but i'm not missin you right now

sometimes i hear you say my name
in a crowded bar or a lonely place
like an angel's touch
or a moment of peace
but the moment passes by

i still reach for you
in our empty bed
i still call for you
in my sleep
i still dream of you
every night
and every morning there's tears on my sheets

with every breath
with every fake smile
i hold back the pain for awhile
with every laugh
with every heartbeat
i think of how you once loved me
and i think of how it used to be
but i guess i'm just missin you right now

the rain keeps fallin
on my tin roof
the weather's doin its damn best
to match my mood